= listen to the music and feel the beat =
Friday, 20 February 2004
haix...had chemistry n chinese...haix...*sighz* i dun tink i'll fail my chinese
this time...hope not...but i also dun tink i'll do v well...but for chem arhz...no
need say already lolx...sure fail one...dumb...all the ques ao difficult....when
i see the ques my mind go blank...as in "huh? wad r they asking for?"...die
lolx...tmr still got el n d maths...i dun tink need to study el...but my d
maths sucks...compared to the whole class...my whole class is filled full
w geniuses...i'm going to b last this yr...can visualise my end of yr report
bk liaoz...
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-- 08:41 AM, 20/02/2004 --
Tuesday, 17 February 2004
look at the time...yep u guessed it...i din go sch today...i expected it
sooner or later...fr the begining of this yr till now...i've been sleeping
at 12 midnight...n i never had a gd night's sleep lolx...den lately i've taken
to sleeping in classes...yesterday i even slept during geography lesson...one
of my fav classes...poor jasmine had to wake both of us up for the next lesson...cuz
my partner audrey also slept...den last night i did a maths n maths d will
2 am...den i slept...i woke up with such a nerve-splitting headache tt my
mum told me i can stay home n sleep...haix...i tink we r getting back the
geog test today..i wanna noe how i did...somebody...help me see my marks can?
=)
Eb major - you are warm and kind, always there for your friends,
who are in turn there for you.
You are content with your confortable life and
what you are currently achieving; if you keep
in this state you will go far.
What key signature are you?
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-- 11:43 AM, 17/02/2004 --
Sunday, 15 February 2004
had piano lessons in the afternoon...now i've juz finished my a maths hw...do
we hav eng hw? i dun tink so...die lahz...i tink hav but i can't rmb...oh...dumb
dumb dumb...n i forget to buy jasmine's present!!! i'm so forgetful nowadays...who
noes...the nx time i forget could b the fingering on the clarinet...or even
going to sch! gotta sleep now...had no sleep the last few weeks...so tired...i
hope i dun fall asleep during tmr's band prac...
my tag messages r piling high...shall reply some of them...
[pamela] i'm not sad lolx...i'm trying to b more positive...looking at everything
in the positive side...n to b glad of everything...den if the situation is
bad or not in my favor...den i'll make the bez out of it...
[emily] thanz for the encouragement...i'll cheer up n smile...=) n yay! thanz
for the comment on my poem...n i'm glad u liked it!! =)
[ah ling] i'm writing for the commonwealth sompetition...but i've not written
finish...
[hyperactive] yep...added u liaoz...
[-sam-] thanz for the encouragement too...i'll cheer up...definitely...
y does everyone keep telling me to cheer up...or to b happy...or to smile?
or they will tell me not to b sad...or propably encourage me...but the problem
is...i'm happy n glad w the way i am...no one's perfect...i've learnt tt painful
lesson...i noe tt everyone have their gd points n bad points...we juz hav
to noe them...n only ur true friends would like u for ur strengths n faults...yep...even
ur faults...they would not ask u to change for them...n i noe i hav to b happy
n smile even if i dun feel like it...i realise now tt there r some pple who
care for me...even if they r the minority...i'll not let them down...i'll
smile for their sakes...for the sakes of the pple who care for me...
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-- 10:43 PM, 15/02/2004 --
Saturday, 14 February 2004
hahaz..happy valentine's day everyone!! hee...had band today! exchanged valentine's
day gifts w many pple...jerina so nice...gave me a cake n candle...n my sect
pple also nice cuz the sec2s gave me alot of sweets...u all arh...so naughty...gave
me so many sweet things...wait my teeth drop...den cannot play instrument...anyway...all
of u so sweet...thanz! =) n thanz to everyone who gave me gifts too! =)
went out w peiting, weiling n pamela!!! finally!!! but din get to take neos...but
we went to buy someone's present...hint hint...u noe who u r...hahahz
i reminded myself of one thing today...recently...i told myself...as long
as the person that i like or love finds their own true happiness...even if
they hate me...i dun mind...i'll still continue to like them...n i'll b happy
for them n myself...n tt if a person hates me...i shd b glad...cuz tt means
they wun b hurt if i leave or go away one day...as in like, if a person u
care for goes away, u would b sad n hurt rite? ya...so if tt person hates
me...at least they would b spared the hurt n sorrow if i go away...less sadness
n hurt will make the world more happy...n i'll smile now...i'll continue to
smile forever...even if i'm sad or unhappy...cuz it might juz make someone
else happy n cheerful...n tt pple who care for me would not b worried for
me...n they too would b happy...=)
You're Dory! You're a total airhead! And you
probably even suffer from short term memory
loss. But you are a friendly, hospitable, and
sociable person. You love to chat with people
and probably even tell them your life story!
But sometimes you can get annoying with your
yapping...so calm down a bit and take a deeeeeeep
breath.
What character from Finding Nemo are you?
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-- 10:09 PM, 14/02/2004 --
Thursday, 12 February 2004
band today...okay lolx...but i still dun understand y brynn muz tk by level
of interval studies...den i would b the only one playing...den i so stupid
one...play wrongly...wrong key somemore...den she never ask me play again...make
me feel so paiseh...haix...but yay! nurul got into 2nd part...got new 2nd
part partner! =)
fine...i'm the black sheep in the section...den
y let me stay on...when i wanted to quit..y did u all stop me...i'm dirt...no...i'm
treating like dirt...no...worse than dirt...i'm worse than vacumn in the space...at
least they r studied by pple...n me?? juz let me rot...i'm rotting in the
section...so kae..i'm worse than the sec 1s n 2s...i'm not up to standard
compared to my peers...i'll never be able to catch up w seniors...den transfer
me back to 3rd...i'm not fit to play clarinet...let me play the saxophone...or
french horn...or any other instruments in the band...u dun help me when my
instrument is spoilt...at least try to see wad's wrong...i'm not asking u
to repair it lol...u dun help me when my playing sux...my tone sux...i love
my section...a lot...believe me...but sometimes...i feel that it isn't fair
at all...
hee...i finished my poem liaoz...during social studies lesson...read n enjoy
it...n rmb to leave a comment at my tag-board! thanks...=)
Decisions
When a day begins,
what should we do?
should we wake to a day of joy
or gloom
to show a face of pure happiness
or a mask of sorrow
and anger
to act with a surge of generousity
or snatch everything out of
selfishness
to shower your friend
with words of affection
or words of vulgarity
to attract your friends like
bees to honey
or push them away
with actions of disdain
so,my friend,
let me ask you this
when a day begins
what should we do?
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-- 08:01 PM, 12/02/2004 --
Wednesday, 11 February 2004
yay! tmr hav band! hope mrs chua can come...den can hav combined! ...hee...i
sounded happy rite...but i'm not..i'm not happy abt something else...but den
i'm still happy abt band...my results for a couple of the subj sucks lolx...it's
so lousy kae...but den pple keep telling me,"u wun fail one" or
"u will get really high one"...den look wad i got? such horrible,
disgusting, lousy results...so disgusted w it...n it's not like i never study...i've
been studying nightly...revising a bit here...a bit dere...but i guess probably
i dun study smart...wad crap...i'm juz lousy...
i've juz came up w another quote...it's copyrighted by me...so dun anyone
copy...hee...juz joking...i wanna share this w everyone...'we muz stay happy, n rmb tt dere r pple worse off compared to u...we muz remain
positive, cuz there's much in life to look forward to...we muz always smile
though we r in pain, as it might juz brighten up someone else's day...'cool
rite?? i'm going to write another poem soon abt it...i can feel inspiration
running thru my veins...gotta go 'eat' up my phrasebk...den i can b 'decorative'
in my essay...=)
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-- 10:16 PM, 11/02/2004 --
Monday, 9 February 2004
today is yet another band day...haix...but today's sadder...found
out stuff which i never ever want to find out...hate it...i hate it when things
turn out the way i din imagine it to be...k...
so...she's angry because of us...wad can i really
do abt it?izzit really my fault?i noe...i noe...but i wanna take all the blame
on myself...i dun want others to take the burden..i want to lessen others'
burdens cuz i oe i always cause others some...i rather her b angry at me...me
n only...haix...i juz wanna carry the world w my own two shoulders...
thanks peiting n pamela! u two r the best ever sectionmates anyone can hav!thanks
for comforting me today when i was really sad...thanks a million!for ur sakes...i
will b happy n cheerful...n when pamela tell my tt 'share the burden story
again...i will put it up here to share it w everyone too...=)
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are an angelic spirit who
has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one tragic mistake that cost
you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't commit. In any case, you
are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or acceptance in your love or in
yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful
and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching picture. You are the one that
few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you deeply and wish that they
could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in memories of better times
and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or self-loathing. Feeling rejected
and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite your tainted nature, your
soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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wad can i say?it's actually very accurate...i suggest tt most
pple take it...it's like looking in the mirror...
Wisdom
What Kanji word best suits you?
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for this arh...i tink it's quite accurate...n
yet not accurate...eh...dunno lahz...it depends on how u look at it
lol...
find your
element at mutedfaith.com.
This one is interesting though...heeZ~
« day[dream]er
» -- 09:21 PM, 09/02/2004 --
Sunday, 8 February 2004
went to music essentials...but dere so messy..so hard to find nice
pieces...wanna buy swan lake n nutcracker waltzes when i hav the money...den
had piano lessons...haix...i wanna learn the violin!! it's so nice lol...the
instrument i mean...after i get my piano diploma i might consider...but den..if
i still stay in band when i go to jc...i might take the abrsm clarinet exams
too...shermin's tking the abrsm bassoon exams too...so harworking one...hee...so
much plans...hope i hav the time to put it in place...hee~ =)
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-- 07:25 PM, 08/02/2004 --
Saturday, 7 February 2004
haix..had band today again...n i hav absolutely no comments abt it...but
i like pamela's conducting...so much nicer than mine...=) i'm contradicting
myself...kae...actually hav lots of comments...but shall not say here...i
noe a certain someone has read my blog...but...i dun mind...it's the purpose
of a blog...anw...i hav been thinking alot abt the section...k...n this is
wad i think...i think the whole section is like a house...the third part is
like the foundation of the house...2nd part the walls n the 1st part the roofs
n decorations...n every part counts...tt sort of thing lahz...i noe it's really
lame...but tt's how i really think lolx...w/o the 3rd part,we will crumble...w/o
the 2nd part,we cannot stand[not literally i mean]...n w/o the 1st part,we
wun sound right...like the 1st part is the finishing touch...hee~=) i hope
i'll hav the courage to speak up in future...thanz peiting!gd advice...now
tt i hav thought it over...=)
n i hav made another new year resolution...though it's kinda late...i muz
try not to b negative n pessimistic...n i muz b happy n positive fr now onwards..i
cannot b a burden to anyone..n i was rmb not to b the me when i was in sec1
n 2...1) i muz not give up...2) i muz try to b more optimistic...3) i muz
b more daring...[not like daredevil, i mean...]4) i muz b more decisive...5)
n be more careful...6) not to forget...to be more hardworking too...can't
tink of anymore...but i juz realised...the characteristics i've said seems
to be of tohru's[fr fruits basket...watch it on channel 8,every sat at 1.30pm...it
rocks lolx...]...hee~ [note to self:i probably wun fufill any of those stated
above...hahaz...=) ]
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-- 05:09 PM, 07/02/2004 --
Friday, 6 February 2004
hahaz..changed my template again..now even nicer..cuz of my favourite colour...gray!!=)
haix..so sad..got back some test results today..den did really badly for so
many subjects...i hav to work harder!!! i muz study harder ...den i can prove
that physics n chem is un-failable to grace...hahaz...quite gd motivation
anw..den i'll work harder...cannot slack at this point of life...if i slack
now..den i'll never b able to catch up..n soon i'll b eating dust...wah...cannot...today
had music..yay!=) new teacher..she's nice n she teach well!but the sad news
is...ms low would b cuming back in april...n she's setting our common tez..die
lahz..she so strict lolx..den i hav to prepare who noes how many pieces lol..but
they muz b played to last ten minutes..can u believe it?? crazy one lolx...my
only pieces r like one minute...tt means i play ten pieces??crazy kae..now
i hav to source for new n long pieces...n slow ones...den i can drag...n drag...n
drag...n drag...n drag...n drag...n drag...hahaz..n lotz of rubato!hee~
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-- 10.30 PM, 06/02/2004 --
Saturday, 31 January 2004
changed my template...nice rite...=) hahaz...anw...band day today...weiling
arh...y u never come...leave me so lonely one...haix...so lonely in band today...nobody
wanna practice with me...i noe i'm very lousy on the clarinet...i wanna go
back to 3rd part...dun wanna go up to higher parts anymore...[dun tink i'll
remain or get dere anw] ...at least dere...got regina n madeleine...den got
the sec2s...at least they would accept me as part of them...miss 3rd part...haix...but
it is not for me to choose...i'll juz hav to stick with wadever i hav now...felt
so sad today...but i tink i managed to look happy still...did i? ...shd be
lahz...den...yay...i can still smile even when i feel sad...wad an achievement...=)
shall reply tag messages here fr now onwards...
[pt] i hope so too..=)
[lydia] thanz...n it isn't ur fault...u made 2s3 very lively...n u were nice
to me during science...hahaz...miss mrs neo...n really...u hav being a very
gd frien to me...all three of u...jia qi,lynette n u...n u can get my email
fr lynette or jia qi...sorry...=p
[lynette] hahaz...u will always be my friend too...=)
[jan] i tink i'm glad tt i was part of two[s]three...i really grew up those
two yrs...n i feel inferior all the time...i trying to correct tt however...thanz...love
ya too...=)
[emily] dun so sad kae..smile...=)...give me ur birthday den i put on my blog
kae? hee~=p
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-- 10:06 PM, 31/01/2004 --